oops haven’t been updating have i?=P
Thursday was a real fun day=)))))
talked to himmmm=))))LOL-.-
man i overreact ALOTTTT !=P
anyways yesterday went to bcc for
STEAMBOAT, ICECREAM and most importantly…
GOD=DDDD
unfortunately after finishing the steamboat i almost had no more stomach for the icecream=(
and beaumont and jinxian…
hit my hand and the icecream fell on me=(
nvm it was still a fun day=))
went crazy for God=)
ooo and took pictures but well i can’t find that usb cable-.-
never mind ill post it when i find it=)

Today the sermon was real good=)
i loved it
you can really feel the presence of God
it was AWESOME=DDD

I tried my best i really really tried my best…
or at least for the chinese test i did,
the physics test i didn’t study, i admit=/
even though i didn’t fail both test, i did extremely terribly,
except for the other physics test i studied for,
but seriously,
my chinese sucks, i’m trying to improve it,
cant you just give me some time?
i mean like with such a hectic schedule
its not easy to juggle everything,
especially now that i’m feeling rather sick
i feel like just running away from the world
like maybe the studying part isn’t much of a choice,
but the canoeing?
at the same time canoeing…how can i not go
it will just make things worst for the team=(
i hate this expectation thing
and i hate that i feel in debt to these people thats why i’m doing certain things, thing
instead of doing it for the joy of it=(

“When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.”
-unknown

Todays cip was quite good=)
was teamed with ashraf ali and yangyang=)
we collected quite a number of newspapers
and we were totally amused and freaked out by the doorbells
they had
hahhaha having ashraf and yangyang in your group is quite fun=)
very funnyx)
after that took bus 14, was supposed to go to icecream gallery
with jane and darlene but it wasn’t open so i went home instead
then went to the library
but because i forgot my library card i ended up staying in the library for about
4 hours just reading a book
eeeeee but the book was nice=)))))
then saw fouzan on the bus coincidentally=)
ooooo today also saw the handsome guy^^
lol randommmm ok=P

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Stress level is increasing each day,
i feel like im racing against time.
Having school then canoeing then tuition
or school then house practice then tuition,
ending the day at about 10pm and having not a single drop of energy left=(
Yes, it is horrible,
it feels as if its not about completing your days work anymore
but trying to complete as much as you can
so the pile wont get any bigger=/ 

hmm=)
yesterdays tuition was not bad if i really think about it
didnt really see Don but that shouldnt be the reason i go to tuition anyways
at least i learnt something=)
and he did smile…i just didnt catch it-.-
hahahhaa=)
stop overreacting jessica=)

 You can give without loving
but you cannot love without giving
-Amy Carmichael 

Feeling really guilty right now=(
heeee keep making empty promises to myself,
its really bad=(
i keep telling myself to study so i can get good results for my Olevels
but it doesn’t seem to be happening.
I tell myself to train harder for this years canoeing competition cause it may be the
last canoeing competition im having
but im only training during proper training time, no extra training=(
Sometimes i really hate myself for getting distracted so easily=(
Even though i’m sure to eventually ill study and train
however, i usually come to my senses at the last minute
and my point is actually to be consistent=/
i really have to motivate myself!
God please help me!=)
btw HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEECHENG AND LEBRONE

We must remember what the Lord Jesus said,
” We are more happy when we give than when we receive.”
-Acts 20:35

Today half day! Whoooo
and bought a new hp=DDD
Whoa after tuition i had a lot of fun as well=)
hahaha Darlene, Jane and  uncle hid my handphone and i was totally freaking out
i even started crawling all over the floor looking for it=P
Then after we left, Darlene and Jane started singing that song again-.-
“even if the sky is falling don” …LOL
anyways they were singing it all the way to the busstop
and i was looking around making sure he was no where near us=P
at the busstop Darlene was just about to say his name before we entered the bus and suddenly
yea he was in the bus we were going to take
Darlene: D…(looks up) Oh my gosh!
(i look from her to in front of me)
me: Oh my god!
(he stares at us, rather shock to see us on the same bus)
and Jane is still in the don’t know what is going on mode
Thank God Darlene didn’t say his name aloud=)
heeeeeee well today overall was an awesome day=DDD
Thank God, i love you=)

Congrats to those who did well in their Olevels!=D
and those who did’nt its not the end of the world=)
OOOOOO
Today there wasn’t afternoon programme=D
but still had to stay back in school for canoeing!
After canoeing, had POA TUITION
and darlene and jane followed me=)
there were so many people that we had to enter the small room,
yup just 3 of us and the teacher,
so yupyup we were discussing the prices and all 
and they were feeling more and more comfortable
and soon they were talking about hot guys!
freak!
They asked the teacher if there were hot guys in the tuition and he named a few
and THAT darlene!!!!
OMIGOODNESS she happily went “jessica says there is a hot guy here
she really likes him…erm i think his name is…”*lip mouths and whispers DON*
freak freak freak freak freak
man i turned totally red and tried as calm as possible to say “oh really?”
and the teacher was all smiles…man worse still hes the uncle of that guy=/
damn it-.-
and don was like outside in the living rm-.-
man how crap is that?=/
And im going there again on wednesday!
hmm is that a good thing or a bad thing i dont know anymore=p

NEW YEAR=)

New year new things new beginning=)
hmm well i already did the resolution n reflection n other crappy stuff so ill just write abt my dayed=P
hahahah anw on the last day of 2009…..
woke up at 7am to meet Bryan
hahaha 1st time im earlier than him^^
yup but his pressie to me was much cooler than mine to him=/
anw yup took bus 48 to crystals hse
actually i wanted to slp but dunno why when im around him i just cant stop talking
even when thrs nth to talk abt=P
Reached,i slept for abt 1hr30min=PP
n yea but they were all eating n well i was fasting so thr wasnt much to do
aft bryan left we had bbq!
n then play in the playground n then had worship
yup it was cool the worship part
then me Jolene Rachel  Crystal and Samuel talked till 5.30am
then went to slp n was the last to wake up tt day=/
the most irritating thing abt tt day?
watching them eat at macs,
im fasting n Bryan n Samuel keeps insisting tt im on a diet-.-
haha=)

Just reached home=/
watched sherlock holmes with deborah and well a few more ppl=PP
had tuition b4 tt…he didnt come!D=
saded
have to wake up early ltr at 7am!
going for part of the youth camp
then after tt going 5km jogging!=D
then after tt going for the fastforward party thing!=)
$30…how m i going to come up with the money?=(
hiaz pray!